Its a good thing we went running when we did, it looks like its gonna rain....and the tongan's are out.

At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes... all you need is one.

This week has been quite the learning experience. I've realized what i want and what i need to do to get there. I realized the people i need in my life and the people who aren't worth even a chance to be in it. There are people who can make you feel amazing, the people who make you a better person just by being around them. There are a few of those in mine. One i met at my work and has changed me to be a better person for forever. Some people can bring you so far down and make you feel terrible. Those are the ones who aren't worth the pain, tears, and sadness.

anyways, i have found a new favorite band this week theory of a deadman. Im going through my rock phase again. People don't see me as much of a rocker type. But then again im sure half the songs on my ipod would surprise a lot of people. found some more music on it, that i dont know how it got there. THere was some weird british rap...i was confused. Hope everyone has a wonderful sunday. I know i will. :)

T.H. White said: Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think about us in return

Everything happens for a reason. We fall in love with someone and then all the sudden they are gone, and all that is left is a big empty hole. We make mistakes and mess up. We say and do things we can never take back. But these are all our trials, the things that make us stronger and who we are. They build and shape us these trials. The trial isn't the thing that should be considered in great depth, it's the people who are there for you when you go through it. Friends and family are the ones that matter. The people that make these trials easier to deal with.

It took me a few months to figure this out but if you realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure your still alive. Because you are. And that pain you feel? That's life. The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you, that somewhere out there is something better, and that something is worth fighting for.

I cannot wait till i find that. That simple beauty in love. To find someone to share something so beautiful with it makes all the pain and heartbreak worth it. That makes you have butterflies, and makes you feel like nothing in this world could ever bring you down or even touch you. That one guy that will be there when you need anything. Someone to share it with you for forever. Now, forever is a long time. Love is not something that can be messed with. Our hearts and simple and fragile. And this fragile thing called loves is complicated and all we can do is be careful and cautious and hope that that person does hurt us. But part of the beauty of falling in love is the fear we wont fall. This trial will help me to find something so amazing and so worth waiting for. And all worth these horrible boyfriends who cheat, lie, and hurt us. It will be worth all the weird dates. Well at least i hope it will. Time and all eternity is along time..so I guess I can wait a bit longer for the perfect guy for me :)

On that fine note, life is great right now. I live in provo with my three fabulous roommates. There the best. :) we have a good time. We did yoga tonight and I am very tired. My family is amazing and i love them all very much. My life is beautiful..so be jealous. Because not for a second would i take anything different, and i don't regret anything.